Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Something...


The breeze feels rather dull.. clouds motionless, and those chirping of the birds lifeless..
When its an emptiness you find in you most of the times..
Probably that’s bound to happen with time….days wont be rosy each day u wake up from your bed, things around to haunt you and illusions to clutter your world…. At a point like this..its great to fall back upon those simple joys of life that keep you preoccupied, keep the haunting feeling aside … like.. a quality time with family, unwinding with a longtalk with a friend, or embarking upon a new journey..like closing a chapter of life and opening another. You don’t know if its good or bad..but its different, its new and fresh and that’s the charm of it all I guess…
It happens with me everytime…. a fear, a trepidation, an uncertainity …with the change of time. But this time its greater somehow..probably growing up and few harsh reality checks in the past have resulted in this clueless growing uncomfort.
For all I know, I ll be a little aloof for a while, a little lost.. angry and cribbing may be…
I miss the times I spent for my undergraduate studies in hostel…and now when its time to enter the postgraduate phase of my life, I fondly reminisce those … late night chais, banging each others doors at any point of time,friends coaxing you to try one sutta of cigarette, sharing the innocent fears of the future to be, PNPCs (poro ninda poro chorcha aka bitching), waiting for our Mr rights and often discarding the very idea of falling for any relationship atall…
Always having rushed to look forward to something little more worthwhile ahead, it’s a little late I realized the joy was in those simple pleasures…

I Welcome myself to the real world anyways..!!!



Current Song humming- Jaane kitne dino kebaad gali mein aaj chaand nikla...

The movie am craving to watch- Cheeni Kum..

Thing am craving to do- Shoppingggg

15 comments:

Ricky said...

You took me back to my hostel days yaar and you expressed it so beautifully.

It was a little different in my case as it was the boys hostel. It was something like... Late night chais with samosas on udhar, banging the doors to the point of almost breaking it, having the first drink with friends and trying the bhang for the first and last time, teasing each other about future-to-be's, (poro ninda poro chorcha)*100, waiting for our Ms right...err...Ms. wrong...umm...koi bhi chalege yaar :P

Thank You :)

Mehak said...

Hostel Days...fun days...all those sleepless nights...either studying one day before the exam & bitching all night...talking about crushes....eating fav stuff from each others tuck...dancing...taking 2-3 hrs to decide what to wear the next day to college....that phase for me has gone...& I have some pleasant memories...but that time will never come again...You still have a few more years...PG ke time aur bhi mazee karna....new place...new friends...new HOSTEL....tc...love...MUAHssss

Red Soul said...

well now that u r here, in this stage of life, dont stop performing and pondering over past life..... jus keep going on, and keep writing.. some yrs down the line, u will miss this time too.

I think one line that makes sense is.... "chalna hi apna kaam"... dnt u think?

I am craving for cheeni kum too :D

Sorabh Baxi said...

hi...really great timing yaar...I am also feeling exactly the same at this point of time...wanna humm that song too...and really have to go for a lot of shopping and movies, specially Cheeni Kum...

And yeah, hostel days were totally amazing...for me, it was late night canteen, PL ki padai, notes exchanges, discovery of new notes and new topics, games, leg pulling...
I guess I would get to repeat all these once more

Pranshu said...

I know how you feel right now and you would remember from my blurty days, how it was during my last days at IITK. But like me am sure you too have dreams and aspirations ahead of which you see as you float up and down the waves of nostalgia. I have complete faith in you and your capabilities to adapt, excel and win hearts.

Come be my neighbour again lil doll :D

Vaibhav said...

uhu! I hope this time around and now onwaards it would be easy for me to comment on your blog once again!! ;)
so good to see golden yellow dawn spread across the dusk in background....so like my own site:D
Believe me I am feeling sooooo happy................that your blog is more easily readable now:P
chal I won't let your emotions overflow now;):P
rahi baat hostel life ke ...toh wo to maine dekhi nahi kabhi par haan mehsoos zaroor ke hai! so, I can understand. Chalo ab jaldi se mail karo aur batao ke aajkal kahan ho aur kya chal raha hai???
take care and all the best dearie :)

PS: :O ye kab huaa????? new bloggerrr!!!

Khamakha said...

ricky-lol, no prob ricky, da foolishly nostalgic me wud keep remindin u of old days everytime;)

koi nahi, ms rite hee milegee tujhe>:D<

tk care..
n mail me ur no plees!

Khamakha said...

hey mehak..yeah can understand, all of it must be still so fresh sumhow. n yeah..these days wont come bak, i d rather be ready for the fun part too:)

Khamakha said...

red soul-heyyyy gurllieee:P i watched the movie. pretty cute :) love means -age/sex no bar;) hehe, watch the movie,zexy che.:P:P

n ya...hume chalte jaana hai....

Khamakha said...

sorabh- pl ki padhai maane?

yeah, another lovely phase of ur life, u ll rock i kno:)

n cheeni kum..hmmmmm, hope u manage to watch the movie pura this time:P!!

Khamakha said...

pranshu-yeah, waves of nostalgia...
tryin to see ahead of them, actually tryin to attach some meaning to it all...

>:D<

Khamakha said...

vabs- lazyy u, see wht all i do to make u read my posts!!

n tht long comment frm u was rather a surprise (pleasant one ofcourse!)

just smsed u my new no.

Anonymous said...

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psst!! acha likha hai.. n lov dat poem!! ..but m still angry :P n oh, btw, rain's updated..
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Neo Amaan said...

did u get to watching cheeni kum ?I've gotten really bad reviews !

Red Soul said...

cant expect updates from u :p