Tuesday, July 7, 2009

And there are days when you are choked with emotions..but the numbness is so overpowering it refutes all reasons of letting thoughts breathe without fear of consequences.

Like stray memories demanding a decision to forgive or forget, let go or supress...
life sometimes poses questions framed in a format that is hardly decipherable by the mind and the heart... A phase comes I guess when an individual has no clue of what is happening around him/her but keeps operating...functioning..surviving...and sustaining... awaiting with bated breath for moments that would reaffirm his faith in the very word faith itself...

Crossroads are a dangerous juncture... you have to take you pick..
you may go backwards, go ahead..but freezing or going still is the worst form of surrender!

But life, time and again with its favourite game of hide and seek has splashed reasons on me to keep functioing...and at times cherishing and reveling in the ecstasy.

So what are we ultimately, zombies?? aliens to the other wordly creatures (if any) who emote, cry, smile, demand, whine, pester and ultimately mould into the rationalities with the emotions getting emoted like machines, where even a decision from the hearth is as functional as a device that flashes reminder or to-do note as set by its owner. The only difference here is we ourselves are the owner here running our lives like a puppet show. The heart is scared to feel,changes boggle and amuse it... and the most that the owner can do is probably try and tenderly hold the heart with utmost care by protecting it from the harshness outside. A scratch and you are damaged for a lifetime. How weak;) I guess whoever says he is strong says so with all the scratches and wounds having gone numb in the heart and well! ignorance is bliss right, you just need to be prepared to shut the sudden pangs and desires that heart cries out for at times.

By the way I inteneded to start this post on an entirely note, but never mind..
Life is beautiful:) more later...


Sidharth said...

Heart exists. Soul is existential. The very "owner" you mentioned, is a soul which changes its abode in every life, a changed body, form or a "puppet". It lets heart experiment, learn, unlearn like a father wants his child to play, hurt himself, take risks and then learn the ways of life. The heart is oblivious of the choice it possesses, the choice of letting "things/experience" affect it. Experiencing them is important to understand their triviality. So let this heart indulge in its wanderlust, the protective sheath is their.
..And you know, there are a few more nice souls around you, who'll protect you shonu.

AshenGlow said...

Ok. Lemme not give you gyan, because India me gyan muft me mil hi jata hain.. ;)

But if you have something worrying you dear, talk about it to someone.. You know, most people already know many things, its just that sometimes you just need to hear that from someone else. It suddenly makes more sense then.
Iv tried it and it worked.

Love and prayers,

Khamakha said...
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Khamakha said...

@sidharth-"It lets heart experiment, learn, unlearn like a father wants his child to play, hurt himself, take risks and then learn the ways of life."... lovely words:)

@ashen- absolutely...and like i said..there are days like these when u just want to pen it all down, bas khamakha ;) :)